You think you know someone

You think the person is like you

But when the person do the things i hate the most

things that causes the most pain of all

not pain to me

but to the other part if he get to know

i cant believe that

dont understand that

with all our discussions about life

can you trust anyone?

Not even your closest friends?

And i see this al the time

why should i bee blessed this time?

Will my relationship be blessed?

Will i this time not get hurt from the one i trust and love the most?

I hope with my whole heart with every single heabeat that we are meant to be and we wont do anything stupid to each other

I hope we are one couple in the million that is blessed and can control our doing and not lie and not cheat

Baby pray for that

pray for being blessed

T

a hit in the face it is

to see them togheter

the pain in my heart i feel again

the bird flies away

fly away

Lately im not the same as i used to be

i dont know but sometimes it seems like all my patient is gone

like im judging more

sometimes it feels like im a person i never thought i would be

but i know its wrong

the ones who knows me would say im  a good person

but maybe have stoped to belive

and yes its so

i get bored easily now

 and if i feel attraction to someone just a little it slips away fast

maybe my way to protect me

but i just cant belive in the way of love again

coz i have never felt the way since the day i give your love away

i know its time for me to carry on

have to take a deep breath look inside and jump

but i have builded a stone wall round me

and i just cant break through

i wishing on a star

I Meet my ex today in the city

i saw him far away

My first thought was its Marcus, didnt felt anything

didnt know if he would stop and talk to me

he stoped and smiled but little unsure

i guess he didnt know how i would react

coz i was so sad last time

 So long time it has been since i saw him

almost 6 months

i took away my music he his phone

sad hello asked if he was well

fine he sad

me to

still in town

yes both

he asked if i thought he was different

i told him no his the same

unshaved and his old same cap

skinny as the last time i saw him

he asked if i was living in the same appartment

yes i am the same old

i told him i thought he had moved to stockholm as he planned for 18 months ago beacuse he didnt had contacted me

no he will live in vasteras

not to his girlfriend

he told me no

is it good between them

( cause he told me before it wasnt when i still was in touch with him for more than 6 months ago)

it wasnt so good up and down it goes

he told me that

a proof he is the same ( the same man who was a bastard to me save man who is unsure of what he want)

keep in touch i sad

of course he sad ( a lie i can bet a million on that)

 and when i walked away i didnt felt anything for him

didnt want to touch him or kiss him

liked i always wanted before

suddenly i felt so free so happy

I knew before i didnt want him as a boyfriend again

as a friend yes maybe but not a boyfriend

Now i know it defently cause face to face i realy knew my feelings was gone

nothing could make me happier to know that

finally im free i know it for sure this time

i didnt even bother that we didnt talked long

before i would have this time no he isnt worth me

he isnt worth a girl like me

who did evrything for the one i loved

didnt bother if i cleaned coocked payed nothing bothered to me

except to have a true man who love me

he isnt worth me

and im free

my heart is opened and free and i do love my self right now

more then ever im satiesfied..

But i still have the biggest respect for his mother

i wish i could met her and talk to her

but i guess i cant

maybe she dosent respect me anymore

cause i havent contact them

but i couldnt i was hurted so much from him

i had to let go and heal my self 

but i love her for evrything she ever have learned me

my biggest respect for her. 

Some day my prince will come

Someday

En dag kvar sen helg.

En till seg dag på jobbet

Sedan äntligen ska jag to my babies

Miss them so much

mina små änglar

Kommer få masso av kramar och pussar

av söta Alice

Så mycke loove

Blir alltid glad när jag åker hem till min syster och systerdöttrar

Inget gör mig gladare än dem

Älskar barn älskar barn :D

Min kusin opererade bort sina äggledare alldeless nyligen

på grund av smärtor hon lidit av länge

Hon kommer aldrig kunna få barn 

Aldrig få barn

Om det hände mig

Gud förbjude

Mitt liv skulle vara slut

Skulle inte kunna leva

Jag drömmer om det en dag

att ha massa småttingar springande runt mig med sina stora ögon

och kolla på mig med kärlek

Skulle inte överleva om jag aldrig får barn

Än dag hittar jag min man och får mina små barn :)

Mina tankar är med dig Viktoria

Tears on my pillow, pain in my heart, cause of you

Therese 

Sometimes it feels like i dont wannt to se it

so i trick myself that it isnt so

i dont look through the surface

put it away and lock the door

so i cant face it

and sometimes i walk away

dont try at all

cause im tired of trying

Here me my chiefs!

I am tired my heart is sick and sad

From where the sun stands i will fight no more forever

Therese

The lews are falling from the three

Its like a new world are opening for mee

im ready to the new world jump

and with you i wanna shake my hump

my eyes are open and clear

its gone my old fear

im wishing on a star

to see where you are

show me the way

and to find you im gonna pray

Love

Therese 

Like the lonley tree i feel sometimes

and if i could then i would turn back the hands of time and make evrything with you undone

from you i have learned things

but you were the only one i ever trust

i cant even trust my own family

im okey i have learned it

but you broke evry promised

but now my trust isnt hear and the scars in my heart cant disapear and i will wince from evry move someone ever may do to come close to me

i belive dime si es amor but i will not trust so i know i will destroy that for me

 lonley tree here i am but its okey its how the world are

Angel eye

Therese