I Meet my ex today in the city

i saw him far away

My first thought was its Marcus, didnt felt anything

didnt know if he would stop and talk to me

he stoped and smiled but little unsure

i guess he didnt know how i would react

coz i was so sad last time

 So long time it has been since i saw him

almost 6 months

i took away my music he his phone

sad hello asked if he was well

fine he sad

me to

still in town

yes both

he asked if i thought he was different

i told him no his the same

unshaved and his old same cap

skinny as the last time i saw him

he asked if i was living in the same appartment

yes i am the same old

i told him i thought he had moved to stockholm as he planned for 18 months ago beacuse he didnt had contacted me

no he will live in vasteras

not to his girlfriend

he told me no

is it good between them

( cause he told me before it wasnt when i still was in touch with him for more than 6 months ago)

it wasnt so good up and down it goes

he told me that

a proof he is the same ( the same man who was a bastard to me save man who is unsure of what he want)

keep in touch i sad

of course he sad ( a lie i can bet a million on that)

 and when i walked away i didnt felt anything for him

didnt want to touch him or kiss him

liked i always wanted before

suddenly i felt so free so happy

I knew before i didnt want him as a boyfriend again

as a friend yes maybe but not a boyfriend

Now i know it defently cause face to face i realy knew my feelings was gone

nothing could make me happier to know that

finally im free i know it for sure this time

i didnt even bother that we didnt talked long

before i would have this time no he isnt worth me

he isnt worth a girl like me

who did evrything for the one i loved

didnt bother if i cleaned coocked payed nothing bothered to me

except to have a true man who love me

he isnt worth me

and im free

my heart is opened and free and i do love my self right now

more then ever im satiesfied..

But i still have the biggest respect for his mother

i wish i could met her and talk to her

but i guess i cant

maybe she dosent respect me anymore

cause i havent contact them

but i couldnt i was hurted so much from him

i had to let go and heal my self 

but i love her for evrything she ever have learned me

my biggest respect for her. 

Some day my prince will come

Someday